as expected, my paid account ran out far too quickly. I'm considering just renewing it soon, but I'll have to see if I can make more time for it, otherwise it would be silly and a waste of money. I'm glad I had one during the summer at least, got to take advantage of it more.

today was a week for wonderful and terrible things. I just got back from having good wine and cheese with a great friend who is great company. I developed.. a contact sheet. baby steps, but it was wonderful. what was not so wonderful was finding out that the boy I've been in love with for the past year who is thousands of miles away now has a girlfriend. initially I was heartbroken like it was the end of the world. in my school it practically is, and it's impossible to find a guy who's not taken or gay. but I guess this is college and they'll break up because the relationship was lame anyway or I'll find someone else and realise that he was actually pretty lame. but right now it's pretty irritating to think about, because I still think he's pretty wonderful, and he doesn't seem like the type to step into something like this lightly.

but yes, developing! I'm excited, and it's going to be a good time. mostly if I don't suck at it. but I've been pretty lucky with the basics so far, so I'm optimistic on that front.