as expected, my paid account ran out far too quickly. I'm considering just renewing it soon, but I'll have to see if I can make more time for it, otherwise it would be silly and a waste of money. I'm glad I had one during the summer at least, got to take advantage of it more.

today was a week for wonderful and terrible things. I just got back from having good wine and cheese with a great friend who is great company. I developed.. a contact sheet. baby steps, but it was wonderful. what was not so wonderful was finding out that the boy I've been in love with for the past year who is thousands of miles away now has a girlfriend. initially I was heartbroken like it was the end of the world. in my school it practically is, and it's impossible to find a guy who's not taken or gay. but I guess this is college and they'll break up because the relationship was lame anyway or I'll find someone else and realise that he was actually pretty lame. but right now it's pretty irritating to think about, because I still think he's pretty wonderful, and he doesn't seem like the type to step into something like this lightly.

but yes, developing! I'm excited, and it's going to be a good time. mostly if I don't suck at it. but I've been pretty lucky with the basics so far, so I'm optimistic on that front.

I was featured

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it was random but that's cool. makes me feel special anyway! otherwise I'm sick and don't know why I came into work at all today, seeing as I don't even get paid. SMART MOVE.

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there's this interview with Ted Leo that I was reading on the Onion's website, and there was the stupidest argument in the comments. I'm not really a big fan of using God as opposed to god, but I highly doubt that, if it were on purpose, it as a Political Statement. get over yourselves, plz.

I find it kind of depressing that he wouldn't want to talk to neo-cons who come to his shows. people in the comments were getting kind of pissy about that too (srsly chill out), but that's kind of silly. boxing yourself in like that limits your opportunities for making a fool out of them! but then, this is coming from the girl who's going to see Ann Coulter speak in an hour, so maybe I'm just trying to justify my self-loathing.

I'm totally pretending I'm a photographer when I'm really, really not, and my own shallowness disgusts me a little. but I got a new fancy SLR and it's beautiful, it just needs a name. (maybe.)

either way, I still have my film SLR, so at least I have SOME credibility. especially since I sometimes prefer that to digital.